I am such a blogger.

I absolutely love writing. About anything and everything. I do not know a day that I just want to sit in front of my computer and unleash all different feelings about life and love and everything that matters and doesn't matter right now. I cannot see myself not wanting to write in my blog, or in my journal, ever. I cannot see myself not jotting down random thoughts in my phone to remember or write down later. I simply love the idea that people are reading what I have to say and whether they are agreeing with it or not, they still have read my words. My words have entered through their ears and soaked into their brain to marinate. I did that. I gave many people, or maybe just one person, another look on my life. How I act, what kind of person I am, my personality and pet peeves. I love the fact that I can freely express my ideas and not have anyone tell me no. This is what I want to do. This is going to be my career. I have spoke it with my words and told God that this is what I want to accomplish in life: To Write. I want to be the best writer I can be and make as much of an impact on as many people as I can. I believe that this is my calling. It is written in the Book of Life, and I will embrace it until I can no longer. I have no other dream job in life than to be a writer. I want to write things that people want to read over and over again, because each time it makes them smile even bigger. I want to write things that people will be quoting forever, like the words of Mark Twain and Langston Hughes. Writing is my passion. Something that I am driven to do, for my lifetime and on.

Here is me.

Im thinking...

This is an old post from my myspace I published over christmas break. I was reading a lot of my old blogs from my myspace and xanga, and kind of like some of the old things I wrote, even to this day. They all make sense and explain me perfectly at that particular point in my life, so I will share them with you willingly. Always another excuse to help others understand me better as a person, friend, girlfriend, child of God, etc. Hope you like.

Jan. 2008

As I am packing once again to leave for my second semester at Clark Atlanta University in Atlanta, Ga, I came across some very interesting notes from highschool. These weren't just any ordinary notes to me, these were notes from what I like to call "my biggest highschool crush" ::sigh:: His name, I will not reveal. He only went to my school for a year, but he was the cutest boy I have ever seen. He kept me interested, but also got me in ALOT of trouble with a couple people in that one short year. We didn't start talking until the end of that year, and he started writing me notes. yessir, LOVE notes. As I read them, they were so cute. Even though there were quite a few not so "holy" words, they were still the nicest and more sweetest notes I've ever read. Considering, they might be the only "love" notes I have ever recieved from a boy, ever. lol

Okay, now with background information complete, onto my initial reason for writing this blog. As I am reading these notes, I ask myself, "what if this would've gone further", "what if he was my boyfriend, instead of whoever was in my life at the moment", "what if he would'nt have moved away across the country, for my never to see again". "what if". I'm asking myself this questions a lot lately. It seems in the past 24 hours I have lost a bestfriend, and a former boyfriend. As a significant person who matters in my life right now, they are NOT.

Bestfriend: known since the 5th grade. What if i would've neer met her in the 5th grade? I probably would'nt have got into half the trouble i did in highschool, but as much as it was her idea, it was mine. So of course, no regrets. I just wonder, what if i would've met some other girl that day at school? Someone completely different from her? How would my life be the same? I wonder.

Boyfriend: Together for a whopping 2 1/2 years of my life. Sophomore year to Freshman year in college. Crazy, eh? What if I had made that boy who was writing me notes my boyfriend, instead of this other fellow? How would this other boy have influenced me or supported me or cared for me or loved me differently than the other? Would our relationship have been any better? Would it have lasted as long, or not exceeded the summer break? I wonder.

With all these "what if's" going through my mind, I realize that without these people in my life, the former two most important people who were by my side for so long, I would'nt be who I am right now. Because of them and their influences and such, I wouldn't have made the same decisions (good and bad) without them right there making them with me.

So I'm done thinking, "what if" in the past. I'm ready to think a "what if" for the future! "what if i do this?" Will it help me in the long run? Will I truely prospure? Or will I regret it later?
* Trick question : ) I regret NOTHING remember?*

All I have to say it that...
I'm ready! (i think.) lol

yay!

Amazing.

   

    I have had the best few days of my life. Things have just been going so right and I definitely do not want that to change. I have had some amazing opportunities come my way and have taken hold of them like no other. I am excited to say that I am officially a music review journalist for an online music review website. I have completed my first two pieces, an album review on Young Lyxx and a piece on Diana Ross involved on a charity event. I am thanking all of my friends and family and all my readers in general for the support and feedback on my blog, and I would like the comments and criticism to continue as I will continue this blog as well as the music review website.
    Most of all I need to thank God for bringing me to this point and opening this door to potentially start my dream career of writing. As we all know, without him, we are nothing. Ha, I sound like I'm giving a thank you speech on the BET awards (which I am actually watching right now), maybe it was just inspiration lol.
    Anyways, to check out my articles, go to Http://www.mspotonline.com . And keep checking back at my blog and the website for new stuff!
    Also, MSpotonline.com is looking for a new name to call ourselves. Any ideas on what our new name should be? Contact me with your ideas and the person with the perfect name for us will receive a prize!

jlbuckk@gmail.com

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success!

I am happy to say that I have successfully submitted my first album review to be posted online at www.mspotonline.com, a music review website designed to showcase new unsigned artists. My first album review was over Lennix Rogers aka Young Lyxx, a rapper out of San Diego. The review should be posted within the next few days soooo go check it out asap and of course let me know what you think! Also, still looking for new artists who want the chance to be on this website. send me you info on where i can hear your music and I'll decide if your worthy to be discussed or DISMISSED!! lmao


Thanks to everyone that continues to read my blog. I love getting feedback so keep them coming! I'm doing big things this summer it seems like and trying to get my name out there as a journalist, so let me help you help me. ha

-JBuck

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MSpotonline.com

I have recently been approached with the opportunity to write for a professional music review website. I suppose all of my blogging has paid off and someone has liked what I have written so far. I am truly honored to have this opportunity and will do my best to succeed with what I am brought with. This website is designed to find up and coming artists who want to be heard by more than just their friends. This website is to show everyone surfing the web what they are missing as the listen to the radio. Underground music is always the best music. Unsigned artists are the most interesting to listen to and everyone deserves a chance to take their potential career to the next level.
So, to give back to my people who have supported me throughout my blogging months, I would like to invite any unsigned new artists to contact me. Send me your myspace URL and/or email me with your information. I am happy to listen to you music and if I believe you are worthy enough to be written about, I will let you know. However, as I am looking for worthy artists to be discussed, I also have the opportunity to write about those artists who need t be dissed and dismissed. This music review is for me to be the ears of many. I will give my opinion on the music, but do not be discouraged if all that I write is not to your liking.
Once again, contact me with your info and link so I can help you out just as you are helping me!

[Note: Please be serious about this and have more than 2 songs for my to listen to, this is an ALBUM review, if you are a serious artist you should have many songs and/or a mixtape for me to listen to]

I don't understand.

i don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night.


how pictures never change, but the people in them do.


how your best friend can become your worst enemy or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend.


how forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back.


how you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live without.


how even though you know something is best for you, it hurts just the same.


how the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much time to spare.


how people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.


how people can erase you from their lives because it's just easier than working things out.

[i didn't write this, but i had to post it. makes so much sense and is completely true]