It's kind of like, you never see this sort of thing coming.

My mother.
My rock.
My love.

She has ALWAYS been there for me, since I was born. Never left my side, even when my father decided to. And at times I will admit that I took advantage of this. I never really appreciated my mother like I should have. I always acknowledged that she did everything for me, but it never really sunk into my head that she was all I really had. The only person I could count on for absolutely anything. She will not let me fail, and has always helped me succeed at anything and everything I wanted to do.
And now my mother is sick. She has a number of lumps on her thyroids that could very well be cancerous. So, August 11, 2008, she will have to undergo surgery to have them removed to see if they are indeed cancerous, and if so, they will have to determine if it has spread at all. I'm really scared. I'm trying my best to be strong and help my mom in all ways possible, but in the back of my mind I can't help but think that she may have cancer and may die soon. I don't like thinking about this but I just can't help it. I'm always in prayer, however. Because I know that God does not want me to worry about my moms health because he is going to take care of it.

So I'm stayng positive.

David David David Banner Banner

Me and my one of my bestfriends Arielle were def. present and front row at the David Banner concert last Wed. Lets just say, he wrecked the House of Blues. The concert was bomb, he was all in the crowd, maybe even more than he was on stage! Interacting with the crowd the whole time and not just performing songs but answering questions and talking to us like we were just his regular friends. He kept the crowd extra hype though the whole time, and even picked up my friend and put her on his shoulders while performing "Get Like Me". Dannnggg I was jealous ha. Anyways, he lost some major weight, and shaved his facial hair.. so he's looking mighty good these days, he even kissed me on the cheek right before taking a picture with me.. made me cheese even harder. Ha.

CD is out TUES JULY 15th. COP THAT. Real talk. CD is raw, he performed almost the whole thing at his concert. Check out "Shawty Say" feat. Lil Wayne.









He did that.

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Designing Me

New album review up online nowwwwww.....
A Rowlett based band called Designing Me. Check it out and see for yourself if you loooovvee them like I do!


Click it.


peace out girl scout.
New blog later.. I need a little more inspiration!
Ideas on a topic anyone? Let me know!

It's time

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVi9n7NOIko


watch it. Please.
then PASS IS ON. IT'S WORTH IT.



thanks.

Gimme somethin REAL.

I'm listening to a bunch of music today, trying to find a new artist that I would like to review for my next assignment... Every song I come to it seems like the same stuff I've been hearing for forever know, then once in a while I willcome across something that seems a little different, different beat or look, but then as I listen closer, wack lyrics. I'm looking for more than just a beat. More than just a certain look. Anyone can go out and buy the clothes to play the part. But I need someone to have the look the sound and the words to back it up! I want to review someone with some real hip-hop talent. I want to hear some old school beats with some words that make me feel like I'm relating to something other than money and clothes. Give me something new. Something that everyone can say sets you apart from everyone else. I wanna hear some crazy cool beats that put you at the top of the charts without being questioned.

If someone finds an artist like this, hit me up asap. Until then, I will continue my search. I know there is someone out there with the talent to be an all around group with the style skill and confidence to show what they got. I want to hear something that just makes my face change in a second and immediately start bobbin my head to the beat. To where I'm like, "aye, this is it, they got it". I'll give you the best album review ever in life. Trust. lol.

Yay for Holidays

    A Successful Fourth of July. Family fun and fireworks, what more can I ask for? It was such a beautiful day outside and me and my ma didn't even argue once ha! Well we looked cute, not to mention the gorgeous view at the Harbor. It was like a SOCal view. Amazing. but totally Rockwall, TX baby. My homeeeee. And we got to watch the fireworks from on top of a loft, sipping champagne and eating cheese crackers. The good life. Okay, I'm lying ha. No champagne and cheese crackers, but it was still nice! Anyways, lots of pictures with my ma and my bestie aka my LOVE Arielle. Even though me and Rel spent the day being stalked by annoying 15 year old boys, it was still great ha.












    To add to good events, My church, St. Luke "Community" United Methodist Church in Dallas, TX had their annual " College Day" last Sunday. Everyone wore their college Alum tees and/or Greek shirts as part of dress down Sunday. All the current college students also went up in front of the church and announced their year, school, and major, then received a bible and got prayer for the upcoming school year. As I mentioned a few blogs earlier, a fellow church member Eric Birdsong passed away this year. He would have been a Sophomore in college this coming fall, but unfortunately was taken from this earth before his time. In memory of him was a new scholarship foundation in his name in the amount of $2,000 to a well deserved church member. The award winner this year was a fresh High School Graduate Jennifer. It was so great to see that he will never go unmentioned or forgotten. RIP Eric. We love and miss you, but know you are in a better place now. Please continue to pray for his family as well.

    All in all, it has been a good week. annnd I'm still in love with my keyboard. ahhh eternal bliss :]

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I am such a blogger.

I absolutely love writing. About anything and everything. I do not know a day that I just want to sit in front of my computer and unleash all different feelings about life and love and everything that matters and doesn't matter right now. I cannot see myself not wanting to write in my blog, or in my journal, ever. I cannot see myself not jotting down random thoughts in my phone to remember or write down later. I simply love the idea that people are reading what I have to say and whether they are agreeing with it or not, they still have read my words. My words have entered through their ears and soaked into their brain to marinate. I did that. I gave many people, or maybe just one person, another look on my life. How I act, what kind of person I am, my personality and pet peeves. I love the fact that I can freely express my ideas and not have anyone tell me no. This is what I want to do. This is going to be my career. I have spoke it with my words and told God that this is what I want to accomplish in life: To Write. I want to be the best writer I can be and make as much of an impact on as many people as I can. I believe that this is my calling. It is written in the Book of Life, and I will embrace it until I can no longer. I have no other dream job in life than to be a writer. I want to write things that people want to read over and over again, because each time it makes them smile even bigger. I want to write things that people will be quoting forever, like the words of Mark Twain and Langston Hughes. Writing is my passion. Something that I am driven to do, for my lifetime and on.

Here is me.

Im thinking...

This is an old post from my myspace I published over christmas break. I was reading a lot of my old blogs from my myspace and xanga, and kind of like some of the old things I wrote, even to this day. They all make sense and explain me perfectly at that particular point in my life, so I will share them with you willingly. Always another excuse to help others understand me better as a person, friend, girlfriend, child of God, etc. Hope you like.

Jan. 2008

As I am packing once again to leave for my second semester at Clark Atlanta University in Atlanta, Ga, I came across some very interesting notes from highschool. These weren't just any ordinary notes to me, these were notes from what I like to call "my biggest highschool crush" ::sigh:: His name, I will not reveal. He only went to my school for a year, but he was the cutest boy I have ever seen. He kept me interested, but also got me in ALOT of trouble with a couple people in that one short year. We didn't start talking until the end of that year, and he started writing me notes. yessir, LOVE notes. As I read them, they were so cute. Even though there were quite a few not so "holy" words, they were still the nicest and more sweetest notes I've ever read. Considering, they might be the only "love" notes I have ever recieved from a boy, ever. lol

Okay, now with background information complete, onto my initial reason for writing this blog. As I am reading these notes, I ask myself, "what if this would've gone further", "what if he was my boyfriend, instead of whoever was in my life at the moment", "what if he would'nt have moved away across the country, for my never to see again". "what if". I'm asking myself this questions a lot lately. It seems in the past 24 hours I have lost a bestfriend, and a former boyfriend. As a significant person who matters in my life right now, they are NOT.

Bestfriend: known since the 5th grade. What if i would've neer met her in the 5th grade? I probably would'nt have got into half the trouble i did in highschool, but as much as it was her idea, it was mine. So of course, no regrets. I just wonder, what if i would've met some other girl that day at school? Someone completely different from her? How would my life be the same? I wonder.

Boyfriend: Together for a whopping 2 1/2 years of my life. Sophomore year to Freshman year in college. Crazy, eh? What if I had made that boy who was writing me notes my boyfriend, instead of this other fellow? How would this other boy have influenced me or supported me or cared for me or loved me differently than the other? Would our relationship have been any better? Would it have lasted as long, or not exceeded the summer break? I wonder.

With all these "what if's" going through my mind, I realize that without these people in my life, the former two most important people who were by my side for so long, I would'nt be who I am right now. Because of them and their influences and such, I wouldn't have made the same decisions (good and bad) without them right there making them with me.

So I'm done thinking, "what if" in the past. I'm ready to think a "what if" for the future! "what if i do this?" Will it help me in the long run? Will I truely prospure? Or will I regret it later?
* Trick question : ) I regret NOTHING remember?*

All I have to say it that...
I'm ready! (i think.) lol