Happy Holidays Babies :]

Since I have been at home I've mostly just been working my booty off, but finally, since my sister got in last night, we're going to have some fun! Shopping all da yesterday, and another day full of it today, then dinner with Bruce and his parents tomorrow, after we hit the galleria. I'm kind of excited lol. I'm not that big on Christmas gifts and stuff, but I do like the whole "being with your family and doing stuff" kind of thing. Plus, I don't see my sister but once a year usually around this time, so I try to make the best of it!

Merry Christmas cutiepie's
Have a great and safe holiday!

:]

Britney Spears: For the Record

I've always liked Britney Spears, actually. My first concert was hers, right after he cd with that one song "lucky" had come out, yea, it was probably the best night of my underage life ha. And I never thought of her any different with all the things said about her in the tabloids, because having your public life all out in the open for everyone and they mama to see is extremely hard to deal with. I will admit that I was like, "Brit, you need to get it together", after the whole shaving of the head incident, but as bad as her life seemed at that point, it did nothing but great with her career. Everyone knows that Britney Spears lip syncs, so I don't know why it's such a big deal now, but whatever, I still love her. And beyond the fact that the tabloids making her seem absolutely insane, she won like 3 MTV awards, so boo-yah in yo face! lol Her last cd was amazing, I loved it, anddd her new cd is just the same. I'm on team Britney for life.

Britney Spears - New Music - More Music Videos

sick days are NO fun

I jinx myself EVERYTIME I say I'm not about to get sick. Just last week I was like, "I'm so lucky I haven't been sick this winter", and BAM! here we are. Stuck in my bed downing alka seltzer NIGHT cold, at 1 in the afternoon. Ha, no worries thought, I suppose I'll be better soon.

On a better note, finals are going good, annnnnnnnd I'll be back in Texas on THURSDAY NIGHT. I'm hella excited. Bout to see the loves of my life and make me some moneyyyyy..

One word of advice: If you get a ticket, PAY that junk. Because if you don't, you WILL have a warrant out for your arrest, and if you manage NOT to get arrested, you'll have to pay a good $400 just to be able to drive again without total fear. Lmao. I got a ticket the day BEFORE I was supposed to come back to school in August, for supposedly "running a stop sign". Hmm, really, I just didn't stop COMPLETELY, and the officer considers that running it. Lame. So, I wasn't that worried about it because hey, I'm going back to school so I don't care, but now that I'm definitely going back home, I have to take defensvive driving and pay $400 so I can drive my car again. FUNNNN. Good thing I have a gauranteed job back home so I need to make that money hella fast or else Jessica will be back down in Atlanta in January carless. woot woot.


Stunt Hard- Drake, kid kid, and wayneee of course..
Imeem trippin on just the song, of course I couldn't find it, so I had to get it from youtube.. hmm

IM SO SLEEPY!

All this studying for finals is making my eyes hurt. I'm so sleepy but I feel like I have no time for sleep because I want to do great this week so I can end on a good note and go home! AHH! Not to mention my Twilight Saga books have been coming in so I'm trying to fit reading them in between studying to lol.

Anyways, I think I'm getting sick too, great. Exactly what I needed. Someone needs to come take care of me.

Please?
:]

Ever heard of the Cool Kids?

If you have, then cool beans. But if not, ch-ch-ch-ch-check em out on imeem. There album Bake Sale is pretty bomb. I like em, a lil bit. teehee

eery.

hmmm..

Reading has suddenly become some sort of addiction of mine. I've always liked reading, but when I am forced to do so, like in school, it just takes the fun out of it all. So mainly in the past couple of years, the only books I have read are the ones that were required in class, but now, I'm actually on my vacational reading, and I loves it.

As I said before, I recently saw the movie Twilight, a vampire romance film. And after the movie, i could not help myself but to order the sage online, and I must say that the book is way better than the movie! And I simply cannot wait until the other books come in so I can continue my addiction. Ha.

Other than those books, I have been looking into other books that I want to read, and ordered a few more, it's kind of exciting ha. My ma says she's never seen me so into books in a long time. So now I guess I'm officially the baddest.

Anyways, I can't wait to go home for xmas. woot woot! Just a few more weeks and I'm back in Dallas working at my favorite job ever. Can't wait to see my babiies :]

BOSS.

There's something about having a bestfriend. And then there's something about having a twin. But when you have a bestfriend that IS your twin, well, then you've hit the jackpot. Actually, I've hit the jackpot. Ha. Let's add some attitude to this twin, and the ability to make nigga weak at the knees, and you have Miss Bianca Turner. She likes to be called a BOSS, only because she is.. and she claims she's the BADDEST.. but really that's obvious. ha. Just like me. Hmm.. makes sense why she would be my twin yeaa? Bianca knows how to have a good time, and when we party, we party BIG. But we only party with A-Listers, like Sara aka Comic Sans Italic. She's bad too lol But really, we have been on the BOSS rampage since First Year Seminar with Ms. DeBose freshman year. She's the bittttccchhhh I call when I know something is poppin off, anddd I already know she go tmy back, oh yea Sara too, when I need them. So really, this blog is kind of a tribute to Bianca and her cousin Sara? Lol well, the more, the merrier! haaa i can't help but think that these two girls just use me for my flat ironing skills, but at least I'll get a glass of Arbor Mist out of it. Lmao These are my chicks and without them I just might be lost, or maybe just a little bored. Good thing I do have them though. Love you girls much!!!

This is simply a first draft me expressing my love for Bianca Turner and Sara Banks, so there may be som editing soon. I hope you guys love me as much as I love you!!

Peace out girlscout.

I like music

I like it when people put me on songs. Good songs. So when I hear them I tend to share them with others. Here we go. Just two today.

Enjoy.

MmM.... :]

Whatever Nelly is doing, he needs to keep it up, and it needs to rub off on dudes these days. He may be wit that girl Ashanti, but at least he know how to keep a chick. And he keepin her happy, at least with the visuals.

Can we get some clothes for this girl?

I am a huge fan of former VH1 TV show Flavor of Love, and I am really proud that Season 2's winner Deelishis has been able to keep herself in the spotlight and get some extra fame and cash... But this is almost ridiculous. Everyone know's how big a booty Deelishis has been blessed with, but damn, can I pick up a magazine with her on it and see something over than a necklace on her? It's almost like she can't have a photoshoot without being all the way naked.. literally. Well, let's add a little fur scarf and then that will make it classy. No. I wish I would have nude poses in 8754754243 men magazines, and have my family see that mess.



It's obvious that she would be nothing without her ass. It's the money maker. Sad, but true. I need her to find a lil more talent, because people are really going to get sick of see her fatass 24/7... When that baby gets flabby and saggy.. then what? Think about it! ha.

Andddddd, according to Necole Bitchie, why is it rumored that Deelishis, A.I, and two other girls were seen all over each other at a Detroit casino, and then apparantly left to have some kind of "foursome"... hmmm. C'mon A.I. you gots to be more careful! That's all I have to say about that.

My Xmas List

I may be the only 19 year-old that still writes out a Christmas List every year, and really gives it to my mother, either in person, or via email, buuuuuut I don't care because I like to see how materialistic I truly am, and then I learn to deal with it, year after year after year.

Here we go:

-Mac Pro Notebook. For blogging purposes, and pictures, and because it's just a really bomb ass computer. I've been an HP girl my whole life, so why not try something new?
[we'll see if I actually see this under the tree.. my guess is no. but I can still hope yea?]
-Escada "Magnetism" and Chanel "Chance" perfumes. yummm my favs.
-A few pairs of designer jeans. Specifically Joe's Jeans and maybe some Trues.. [skinnies to be exact]
-the Nikon s60. Yea. The camera Ashton Kutcher is using in the commercial.. where you can write on the screen and junk.. that is one beautiful camera. Not to mention I have had the same p.o.s camera since I was sixteen that I bought myself with my Steak n' Shake tips.. [don't ask. I don't wanna talk about it]
-a DVD player. Umm, because my friends make fun of me that I still have a VCR in my room. hey, what else am I going to watch my Disney movies on!?!

and last but not least

-I want Santa to have Pharrell Williams waiting for me underneath my Christmas Tree, and then I want him to express his love for me, and blah blah blah.. let's get under the mistletoe :]

I think I did way better this year with the things I would like Santa to bring to my house.. I've been a good girl I swear :]

sleepless in atlanta

What kind of Thanksgiving break did I really have?

I spent Thanksgiving with my friend Amanda's family in Snellville, GA, then came home, got a few winks in, and was up and back to work. Sales Associate shift from 8am-1pm, took a quick nap, and it was back on the books. I spent my Friday afternoon, evening, night, reading my book for my African American Religion class, into the wee hours of the night.

Saturday, I actually got to sleep in, but as soon as I woke up I was back on the books trying to finish my info tech assignments, due tonight at 11pm. I have yet to finish. Let's just say I am the original procrastinator, and there is nothing I can do about it. Along with Info Tech and religion, I have assignments due in my news writing class (two articles), an extra credit assignment in my Phy Sci class over the evolution of stars, and a Powerpoint project due in my history class over The Great Zimbabwe. Having said that, I hope that you get the picture that I have not had much sleep in the past couple of days, and this so-called holiday break, has been filled with nothing but working for money, and grades.

Luckily, I can say that I will for sure be ace-ing my Info Tech class, and have my book practically finished by tonight. Also, my grades should drastically be brought up in both my Phy Sci and History classes, simply because I am a genius.

Let me cross my fingers, I don't want to jinx myself... again. ha
Hope all of you had a great weekend! I will leave you to listen to some beyonce babiies. :]

Necole Bitchie

Necolebitchie.com

If you have never heard of it, check it out now. Her blog/website is kind of what I strive to do later on in life, to an extent. Right now, my blog is strictly about me and things that are going on in my life, with a blog here and there having to do with music, movies, etc.  Necole bitchie's

blog is strictly an entertainment blog, with the hottest gossip from what's going on right now with everything and everybody. I love reading her blog, and I'm kind of addicted to it at this point. My bestfriend Bianca put me on a few months ago, and from looking at what she writes about, it makes me think I could totally do this in life. And her blog isn't just a regular blog either. She has sponsors and advertising on her page, so she makes money as she's writing, which is the best part. After looking into her blog, I was checking out Vibe.com and ajc.com, and I noticed that they have bloggers on their online webpage as well. This had me so excited because that means that I could work for Vibe blogging about my ideas just like I do now, with more entertainment news of course. And, it makes it perfect because I have had this blog and written in it religiously for the the past couple of months so I easily have something to show them for possibly internships, etc. We'll see how this goes, it just sort of had me happy for a minute to know that this could be my career, and I would totally be in love with it. 

Twilight

Today Amanda and I had a little girls day out. We did some shopping, got food, and went to the movies. I heard a lot of hype about this new movie Twilight so I really wanted to see it, but Amanda wasn't as convinced. But, I have to say that her mind was quickley changed as the movie started. I loved it, and it's already number one in the box office, with it debuting just this past weekend. Apart from the "token black guy", and the main characters been ridiculously pale, it was superb. It's a story about a vampire (edward) and a regular human (bella) falling in love, and  edward having to fight off the bad vampires from killing her. It's so cute and romanttiiiiiiccc :]. So, after I got home from the movies, best believe I was on barnes & noble.com ordering the book series. There are 4 books right now, and I ordered 2 of them, simply because I cannot wait another some odd months for the next movie to come out. Call me impatient, but I don't care. This movie was bomb, and hella romantic, and all that good stuff. I never thought a vampire movie could be anything other than kind or scary and gross. I heard the book is even better than the film, so I'm well on my way to comparing the two, just as soon as my books are shipped to me!

*peaceeee out*

For Life.

Have you ever had this one person in your life that you could fully rely on, no matter what? A person that was just like you, but completely different at the same time? Someone who you could just call up and be like, "let's go out", and whatever ya'll end up doing, it's like the best night ever?

Arielle Andres
18
Rockwall, Texas

I've known Arielle since I was a freshman in high school. We had the same Geography teacher I think. Anyways, we were always really cool, but not at that "bestfriends" status. Until one day, I decided I was madly in love with her and could not have her out of my life ever. (lol) Arielle is the one person that is completely up for whatever, like really. We are both so broad minded with everything, that there really are no limits to what we call fun. ha. We love to party, and yes, we party well. I love my bestfriend more than anything in the world, and being away from her can be really frustrating because I don't have a friend like her down here. She is one of a kind, and I can always call her to talk about stuff, and when she doesn't answer the phone, I leave mean meannn voice messages, but always end up saying I LOVE YOU! at the end before hanging up. Lol.
Basically, she is everything I would want my bestfriend to be. A hella fun chick I can kick it with on a regular basis and never get sick of, who knows how to have fun! I want to say we were together almost everyday this summer, even after she had surgery on her shoulder, we were still together.. well, I was taking care of her drugged up ass and watched movies and ate like fat kids. no biggie. It's a bestfriends thing, and no one really needs to understand the magnitude of our relationship but us. Because we are some cool ass females, and until the end of time will chant "LONG HAIR DONT CAREEEEE" haaa.

Shady?

I don't really know what it is about friends, but when you stop being friends with one person, does that really mean that you can't be friends with their family still? Does that mean that all communication that you once had with her brother and sister and mother and father has to cease? Even if you were really good friends with her sister and brother as well as her, why does that mean that they have to delete you out of their life as well? It's not like I was the reason why we stopped being friends initially in the first place. I guess those are just the rules I will never understand. i always wonder if I'm ever back home and i see an old friend that i no longer talk to, or am cool with at all. What would I do? Am i supposed to say Hi and be all excited to see them, even when they did me so dirty just one year ago? I mean i have forgiven this person, but not until way after we stopped being bestfriends. And i wonder what would happen if I saw her sister, or brother one day randomly.. Would they speak to me? Even though I am not cool with their sibling, but did nothing to them, I believe they would still ignore me? But who knows, maybe I'm wrong. I suppose I'll find out when i see them one day.

Thinking about all this only makes me wish my life were so much simplier. Sometimes i wish I was still bestfriends with her, it makes me think my life would be better, to have her as my bestfriend again. But then i think of why we are not friends anymore, and remember that my life wasn't super dandy when we were friends. Not saying she didn't make my life better, because she did. She was a hella fun and outgoing person who I LOVE TO DEATH, even now. But having her in my life always drew up complications with my family, because my mother did not like her nor think I should hang out with her because she was too "wild"? I still think that is bullshit, because I am pretty wild myself, but oh well.

Who knows if my life would be better if we were still besties. I guess I will just have to continue to wonder. All I know now is that where i am at in this point in life, is where i need to be. I'm working, in school, pursuing my goals, and trying to make my mother proud of me. That's all I can do, and that is all i am really worried about right now. All the other social issues going on are not for me, so I try not to stress them!

Let go, Let flow! ha

Thanksgiving Blues.

:[ This will be the first year since forever that I will not be with my family for the Thanksgiving Holidays. It's kind of depressing since I have not been home since August, and I miss my ma and doggies. Oh yea, my brother too :].

My brother goes to TSU in Houston and is working down there and just can't get off work to come to Dallas to spend Thanksgiving with me and my ma, so she decided that we would just go to Houston and have Thanksgiving with him. Hmmm, I hated that idea. I was ready to go home to Dallas to see all of my bestfriends, and some old boo's that love me so much lol. But now since my ma is just going to Houston, I might as well just stay here in Atlanta and work over the holiday, so I can go home longer over xmas break and not have to work the day after xmas. Sounds like a better plan to me.... But now, I have to wait another MONTH before I see my bff Arielle, and my ma and brother and doggies. :[ poop. I wish I had more than just ONE cousin out here to connect with.

Oh well, I'm just going to spend Thanksgiving with my girl Amanda and her family that stay down here, and they love me, so it should be great none the less. No worries and no complaining, I'll be back home in no time. And as long as I'm getting my money, I'm happy!!!

Which reminds me, I def. got paid today. Feels good to have money in the bank. haa Now all I need is some food in my stomach and it will be a successful Friday, besides the fact that I have mounds of work to finish this weekend for my classes next week. Time to get on the schoolwork and stop the blogging for today.

Peace babiies.
Have a great weekend.

Why So Serious?

I don't know if anyone else feels the same way as me about the newest Batman movie.. well, it's not really new anymore, but I still get the chills when people even talk about Heath Ledgers roll as the Joker. This movie to me is like when The Passion of the Christ came out. I can only see it once, anymore than that and I just can't take it. Heath Ledger played that role to the T, and it freaked me out the entire time. There was something like demonic about it, personally. I remember hearing about Jack Nicholson talking to Heath before the movie came out, how he was telling him to really think about it before being put in a situation like that, because even Jack was somewhat traumatized by the role. I can totally see why people said that it was hard for Heath to get out of character after they said cut. And it makes sense to me why he pretty much went off the deep end even after the movie wrapped.

It didn't help my fear of Joker to see on Halloween everyone dressed up as him either. I guess I can't really explain it, but the whole movie just didn't sit right with me, not even now! Maybe I'm just being a girl, but that shit aint no joke, and it really freaked me out when I was watching him in the movies. lol Oh well, like him if you want, but I swear if Heath Ledger were given another chance to take on a role like that, I want to say that he would've denied it, it would've saved his life. no lies.




you can't tell me this dude don't scare the sugar outta you!

someday

We'll be together.
i loveeeeeee love songs... MmM makes me actually want a relationship, for a split second. ha
John Legend knows how to make some music I can listen to 24/7. I have no single preference for music, if it's good, it's good. And I like good music. and I loveeee john legend. get it boy.

New Album: Evolver IN STORES NOW. cop that.. i already have

Ive always liked Solange.

Solange new video T.O.N.Y is madd deep. i was thinkin somethin totally different the whole video, but at the end i got it. finally lol ur gonna be like.. OHHHH i get it. ha check it out.

It's whatever I like.

So anyone that knows me, is aware that I am madly in love with Pharrell. No, I really love this dude. Not only is he such a studmuffin, but his swagg is madd ridiculous, which is just oh so sexayyyy to me. ha. Not to mention the skillz he's got with hit songz under his belt. N.E.R.D is the bomb, and I'm constantly looking for new songs that are just amazing.. it's not too had to find. ha But N.E.R.D are really known for havin crazy unusual but bombbb ass beats, which ultimately make the song all together. So, I have to share with you a few songs that are just well, favs. of the moment.







love bomb will always be a fav. of mines. Doesnt he jus sound sooooo sexayyy on this track! haaaa





And now how could I not like this song? do i really even love you? or do i really love your brain? i just love your brains. ha

Basically, In search of the n.e.r.d album is amazing, and their mixtape return on the nerd are on repeat. get with it i guess!

Other than my obsession with Pharrell, Nina Sky is back on it these days, if you haven't heard their song curtain call with rick ross.. I need you to get it together!Nina Sky's songs are way more appealing to the female gender, so all the dudes listenin like huh? just let ya chick listen, she'll be feelin it.



and if you thought this was a one time only thing wit ross.. have a lil more faith in the talent of these ladies. duh.



alright. i think im done for now. I must admit, i listen to music more than i watch tv. well, except for my select few shows.

SHOUT OUT TO LOU! he's my faithful blog reader and i appreciate it oh so much!
Bet imma have a hard hitting blog posted real soon, but until then, just love on this strictly music post.

peace outttttt.

spice it up a bit.

I changed up my hair recently. Got me a lil bang action going on. I think it's a keeper. For now, until I decide something new to do with my hair. There are no limits!

Its here.

Change is here. I am really eager to see what Obama has in store for the citizens of the United States in the duration of his term in office. I believe that nothing but good things will come out of America's decision, and I pray that Obama will change the minds of the people who were not supporting him from the get. I am not saying that this nation will go from the bottom of the todam pole to the top overnight, but I truly believe Barack will have something to do significantly with the success of this country, or at least with the start of success.

OBAMA '08

we have overcome today.

Oh yea, and best believe I will be at President Obama's inauguration in Jan. PEEP ME!

<3

just a quick post.
I'm pretty sure that I have been in love with Aubrey Graham aka Jimmy... aka Drake, since he had a nappy confused fro in the Canadian tv show Degrassi.

I've been hearing his music for a min., only because duh, I was totally stalking him. MmM.. maybe not that extreme, but you understand.

Anyways, I know everyone has heard his music, because he's linked up with wayne on a few tracks like Ransom, and the Brand New remix. My personal favorite track of Drake's, which doesn't even feature wayne.. is Sooner than later. checccck it outtt.

thank you babiies.

I want to thank anyone that has been reading my blogs lately, or at all from when I first started a few months ago. I am still trying to find my true "voice" in my writing, so bear with me. I love what I do however, and enjoy any feedback I can get from outside readers. I have a lot to say, so in time, hopefully I will get all of my emotions and feelings out there. This really is going to be madd hard, because anyone that knows me is quite aware that I really do not show much emotion, I tend to keep it bottled up, and never express my feelings when it might seem like the right time. I guess that is just me, but I am trying to open up a little more! It's really a lot easier to write down my feelings than to say them in front of people, because when I'm writing, nobody has to see my face as they read my words, and I do not have to immediately see a reaction.

So, as long as there is at least one person who enjoys what I write, and keep reading, I will keep supplying the juice.

drinnnkkkkk uppppp.

Too Much

I am a very goal-oriented individual, and very stubborn at the same time. Being in my second year at CAU, I have completely taken advantage of all the possibilities and opportunities that have been given to me at any given time, ever. I seem to be having a little trouble with deciding whether I have crossed the line from being a busy, hardworking student, to being a student overwhelming herself with too much. Anyone that has heard all of the things I am currently doing will most likely say that I have too much on my plate, but I beg to differ. I have serious goals in mind, and I want to get to them as quick as possible. Therefore, I am willing to do whatever it takes to get myself in the position I need and want to be in so bad, in order to get my spot as a writer for a well known entertainment magazine.

I will admit that I am having a hard time keeping all the puzzle pieces together with all the work I have to have finished by certain deadlines, but I have the mindset that if I just continue to focus, and stay positive, everything will go smoothly.

I am currently enduring 18 credit hours at Clark, attending class everyday until about 3pm. While this is going on, I am writing for the Panther Newspaper, I report the news for the WSTU radio station at Clark, and have just recently been offered at job in Atlanta Station. Along with this, I am attempting to get a second job, while patiently waiting to get my car over thanksgiving break, which I hope will make things go a little smoother, and am on my grind applying for these internships. I am trying to continue to be an active member of the AUC Texas club, and at the same time, seek out possible boyfriend potential candidates. [lol] And on top of all of this, I still love to party my booty off, so I try to make time for a little bit here and there. :]

It may seem like I have a lot going on, and I suppose that is true. I think I have adjusted to having 8754875984 thoughts running through my mind at all times with different things that I need to have completed, or which meeting I have today, when the deadline for this article is, and so forth. I have developed such a fast paced lifestyle, but am not quite certain that this is the way that I need to go about it all. I have so many ideas and goals in mind that I am just not patient enough to wait on them, so I chase them at full speed. Sometimes that is a good thing, but other times, I might need to just take a breather and back up a little bit.

To add more fuel to the fire, I am striving to graduate with the class of 2010. Yes, this would be a year earlier than I should graduate, but i figure if I take classes in the winter, spring, and summer, I will ultimately save my mother around $25,000 for Clark tuition. I can get all the rest of my basic courses out of the way at community college either here in Atlanta, or back at home in Texas. This is the part that freightens me the most, because I look into the future at my xmas break and summer break, and just picture me in school. In the end I know all this will pay off, but I can't help but wonder if after all of this I will even be able to think straight. My mother says I will be burnt out, but I suppose we will see! I plan to take 2 courses during my xmas break [winter-mester], then possible 2 more courses in May right after I get out of school [May-mester], and following that, hopefully 3 courses a session during summer school.

This all may change if I get my desired internship with either Teen Vogue or Vibe. If this happends, then I just won't take summer school! ha Anyways, if my posts come less frequently each week, its probably because I'm swamped with homework, or Mid-terms or something. But don't fret, I will always be back!

Peace our girlscout.

MIA

Where have I been at?!?!?!

School started a little over a month ago, and 18 hours aint no joke at all!!! I'm swamped with work to do for all my classes, and tests and quizzes almost every class. DANNNGGG, but I don't mind too much, I mean I am trying to graduate a year early so i can be out of Graduate School by the time I am 23. So let the work pile in, because I can surely handle it. Besides school, I have been doing a lot with working on my writing, and have even landed a spot as a staff writer on the Panther Newspaper at CAU. I'm kind of hype about that ha. So be on the lookout for my name in The Panther this week, or next week. Well, every week! ha. I'm also trying to get this internship stuff straightened out because I need to get that Entertainment experience on my resume. That would be bomb. But with that online music website I write for, I actually got promoted to Senior Editor and now get to have my own staff of writers and photographers to assign events to cover and stuff. Now that's bomb.

Anyways, I'm doing homework now, trying to get these grades where I want them to be, so im out.

And don't forget to KEEP IT FUNKY!

Barack and Fashion go hand in hand

Successful events, with many new young and older people now registered to vote in this years election. Many pictures, and an article coming soon. Check out MSpotonline.com soon for the coverage.

Stay tuned.
Until then, keep it funky.

almost miserable.

my battery on my laptop just decided to DIE one day... about 2 weeks ago. I thought it was the charger at first, because it just wasn't working. So of course being me I waited until the day before I was to leave for school to go get another one from Best Buy. It wasn't the charger, it was the battery, which costs $150, and they don't sell them in many stores. So I had to call HP and order one. Good thing my ma paid for it ha, but I have to resort to the library computers until my battery comes in this week. Bear with me mannnn.


Peace out girlscout. Let's party.

Artist Spotlight: Young Lyxx

Young Lyxx, a native of San Diego, California, is a genius with the lyrics. Check him out for yourself. You can download his music and ringtones on datpiff.com: Top Heavy Vol. 1: The Mixtape , and also an album review, written by yours truely, on MSpotonline.com

He's doing big things this year, but don't let me be the only one telling you he's hot. Big hits on the myspace music page, and hella fans supporting him.

I'm a fan. You'll BE a fan, we're all fans.
:]

(the smiley face seals the deal)

weerdo

Hollyweerd- Have you ever made love to a weerdo LIVE




anddd...
the weerdo dance. haa



saweettttt.

Its allllll gravy.

The love of my life is doing just fine, in case anyone was looking for an update. My ma is home and on her med`s, ha, so she`s either been sleep, or just out of it, lol, but at least no pain. She had to have her left thyroid removed because the doctors were saying that the cysts found on them a few months ago may have been cancerous. The thyroid is located on either side of the lungs, and have a big part of how your body functions.
Alright so anywayssss, the surgery went as planned and now my ma just has a few stitches on her neck and a little pain. Thank you to everyone that had my mother and our family in their prayers, it means a lot to me. And no worries, my ma is still a playa playaaaa ha.




yea. she`s a trooper.



On another note, the posh media blog is up and running. Check it out .... it`s pretty hot, I`m not gonna lie.

Random Request

I need you dudes to get up on your music. Not all the good music is on the radio. I happen to like the underground hip hop sound, the stuff thats pretty much the opposite of every Lil Wayne song. Don`t get me wrong, Wayne is the shit, but I`ve seen too many people just limit their musical taste to what everyone else likes. I love browsing music related blogs to see who these hot ungerground, unsigned artists are. It`s probably the reason why I`m addicted to blogspot ha. I`m addicted to music and absolutely love hearing new sounds. New sounds that challenge current artists on the radio now.

I was chillin with my best guy friend last night and he was listening to my ipod and kept asking me who this artist was, or this band. I`m like, you never heard of these people? Hell no because all he listens to is this D town boogie music and Wayne. Broaden your horizons maaaannnn. Sometimes you have to search for the good music, don`t always settle for the "hot music" on the radio that these Dj`s play every 20 minutes.

Just a small request, or suggestion. Take it or leave it.

The Real Ying Yang Twins... POSH baby.

Introducing Bianca Turner, a new writer on my blog.
I met Bianca my freshman year at Clark, andddd we were meant to do this sort of thing. Inseperarble, everyone called us twins, so it only makes sense to be called Ying (me) and Yang (bianca). Being a PR major with a great ear for new music, I can only imagine what she will bring to my blog. And with amazing and unique ideas to match, this was the perfect solution! Just as she will be adding to the greatness of my blog, I will also be putting a lil extra pizazz to hers [allthejuicystuff.blogspot.com]. Check out her blog, she's got some good stuff going on and is keeping you up to date with "all the JUICY stuff" going on right now everywhere. I'm extra hype to see how everyone likes what were are doing these days, and of course, feedback is greatly appreciated.

POSH MEDIA

Initially created by these amazing girls named Bianca Turner and Telice Lurch, I have joined the team making us a treo. Mix together one journalism major, one PR major, and one marketing major, stir for 5 seconds, and let settle. Now close your eyes and think of the endless possibilities of achievement. Expext a POSH MEDIA blog as well, being created as we speak! We will be using it strictly for promotion. If your a musical artist, fashion designer or anyone looking for coverage and exposure...We are looking for stories so get in contact with us! All inquiries can be forwarded to our e-mail address which is PoshMediaSolutions@Gmail.Com

It`s POSH baby.

It's in the FAM.

When I first saw Solange Knowles video "I decided", I was only a tad impressed. Her voice was great, but we all know the way you sound in the studio with the whistles and bells is madd different from when you perform live. So I really didn't think anything of it. Then I was on another blog as alwaysss checking out new music and what not, and came across a live performance of Solange in London, this impressed me. She got the vocals, for sure. Made me think that I should have known she was serious bout this. The Knowles could not allow their child to go out there unprepared! Coming after Beyonce she lucky she's up to par.

Solange I Decided Live On T4 | Solange-K.net
by solangeknet

Must run in the fam
get it girllllllllll

Mrs. Buck

The original gangsta.
The ORIGINAL BADDEST. haaaa
My ma.
The playa playaaaaa
She a pimmppp.

But playas get sick sometimes too. annd the DAY has comeee.

August 11,2008
630 AM.

Lakepointe Hospital
Rowlett, Tx

Surgery time. Keep my mother in your prayers as she undergoes thyroid surgery this morning. Don't be worried or nervous, because we are not. I have had my prayer time and am in total positive spirits that she will come out of this better than before and will recovery fully. But your prayers are still needed. My ma says if we all come together in agreement then it makes the prayer all the more stronger. It only takes two people to come in agreement on a prayer for it to magnify 10x... so just think if 5 or 10 or 15 people all agree and believe that God will deliver.. then there are no boundaries, and overflowing and endless possibilities.

Frequent updates will be posted throughout the day on the status of my mother's health, so if at all interested in my family, you can check later on today, but please continue to be in prayer.

Thanks babiies.
jbeezy.

Mach 5. Stepchild EP

hit up Plush .357 website and download Mach 5's EP.. available for free download now.




thats all.

Party With a Purpose

This summer I really wanted to find a way to get involved in the 2008 presidential election...to ensure that my candidate, BARACK OBAMA would make history by becoming America's first African-American president.

There are nearly half a million un-registered voters in the state of Georgia alone! (crazy!) I thought it would really make a difference in the community if I did voter registration drives, encouraging young people to register & vote.
Korey Felder of Hitt Squad Ent. liked my idea, and agreed with work with me on it.

On August 29th 2008, at Morris Brown College with the help of my two favorite ladies my Yang Sista, Jessica Buck and my girl Telice Lurch...we will be hosting a voter registration drive at Hitt Squads infamous House Party 3. I am really excited for this event because not only is it going to be a great event...I was able to get the Barack the Vote campaign to sponsor it! If you guys don't know about the Barack The Vote shirts I'm gonna need you to check them out asap! http://www.barackthevote.com/
The designers name is Lorielle, and she has been a big help in making this voter registration a success! The cast of BETs College Hill Atlanta will be in the house as hosts. Red Bull is

also sponsoring the event...I think there are gonna be FREE Red Bull Giveaways as well. Last year when I was a freshman EVEYONE was at this party...I am hoping for the same turnout, with the class of 2012. We will have giveaways for people that register to vote, and encourage everyone to come out and show some support!

This election is extremely important, and Obama supporters are looking to both young, and African-American people to go out and vote.

Don't be lame. VOTE.

You already know the deal...you can hit me up for details...or more information.
Written by: Bianca Turner.
[http://allthejuicystuff.blogspot.com]

tell me i can have whatever i like.

I watched this vid. and really felt myself in it.
ha

kira.

This my nigga Shaakira. She's kinda my cuzzzzzz. and pretty dope.
Well, she makes the best videos, ha.. check her outtttt...




yeeteedeeeeeee!
she's bommbb.

It's a phobia

It's a problem. I have a phobia of being broke. I'm not sure when this happened, but it's real. I need money, I want money, I make money, I get money. But, when I think about a day when I won't have that money, I like hyperventilate or something. No lies. I've been gettin my paper since I was 15, not having to rely on anyone to buy the things I wanted, because I had the money to splurge when I wanted. I guess you can say I have been well off in life, but by my doings really. The moms will pay for this and that, but I can say that 98 % of the things I possess, were purchased by myself.

And then I went to college, and left my job, and car back home in Texas. So I had to rely on my ma to give me money every week, and she tried to put me on this thing called a "budget". Let's just say it did NOT go well. I have always had my money to spend as I please, and I was continuously working so I was never out of money, so there was no need to budget, right? Anyways basically, I do not like having to get money from my mother, at all. I'll take it from my dad, only because he needs to make up for not being in my life for the past 5 years. But I'm jus terrified of one day waking up and having NO money in the bank, no money in my purse, and no money coming in anytime soon. I'd prolly break down and crawl in a corner. Like, really. I get stressed out over big money issues with my family so easy, and with all this financial stuff with Clark, I caught myself crying a few times because it seemed that they were asking for more money than we had in order for me to get back into school.

I dunno. Maybe it's just me, or maybe it's a lot of people. I think all this comes from all the music I listen to, with every other lyric being something to do with gettin money or something. Pretty much every wayne song has something to do with moneyyyy and chicks. So it makes me have the mindset that I need to have money, for myself, not for others approval, but I can't, won't, and don't wanna see myself broke. EVER.

Im gonna keep makin my money.
and I will neva
I will neva
I will neva FALL.

Dannngggg..

As I am taking care of my bestfriend Arielle, who is recovering from shoulder surgery, we pop in a movie. I really have to be in the mood for a dramatic "serious" movie, unless it's Denzel ha. I love comedies, but this movie had me hooked from the get. It's crazy, go to blockbuster and rent it. Plus Leon is in it. Yes, Leon. The dude that is in every BET movie ever showed ha. And he, along with two other men, play some down low bisexuals. A murder, several down low fellas, and an HIV spread, pretty much sums up why you got to see this. Ha. No regrets.

Peace out girl scout.

whew.

Been hella stressed lately. Clark Atlanta financial aid needs some serious work, they took the longest time to FINALLY post my awards.. man oh man. These crazy folks were trying to tell me and my ma that we needed to pay them like $11,000 by Aug. 1st to save my classes so I could be financially enrolled and actually be able to go back to school.

RIGHT.

Let me pull my $11,000 bill out my left pocket. But my ma told me not to worry and I was going to be able to go back to school and to just pray. So that is exactly what I did. and God ALWAYS comes through. My financial aid was NOT up on Fri. morning, but thank JESUS it was posted by the end of the work day and my classes were saved. That sure does take a lot off my chest. I really thought I was going to be stuck at home going to EASTFIELD (shitty community college) for the next semester.
I learned that I cannot question God and I have to always have faith that he will bring me miracles and blessings just as long as I continue to stay true and pray and pay my tithes and do what I am supposed to do. I even got a lil scholarship as well! Every penny counts.

yay. Clark Atlanta here I come.
T-minus 2 weeks and 2 days.
I love my mom. She keeps my spirits up.

Please continue to pray for my mother as well, her surgery is in 8 days, Aug. 11th.

I also met a really nice girl today at this Mary Kay facial party.. Since I am a Mary Kay consultant, I went to learn more about how to sell better and to be organized better, and also to construct a successful facial party to get some sales. Her name is Danyelle and she 20 years old... and 6 months pregnant. She just gave her life to Christ just 3 weeks ago and is a true testimony that God saves. I hope to get to know her better, and help her to steer in the right path as her pregnancy continues. Pray for her so that she has the strength to continue without the baby's father in the picture. He's lame. That's all I have to say. I'm glad that God is bringing me more people in my life that I can testify to of his great work, and so I can spread the word of his greatness to more young people. I love to see young people not afraid to speak about him in any place and time.

g'night bloggers.
God Bless.

It's kind of like, you never see this sort of thing coming.

My mother.
My rock.
My love.

She has ALWAYS been there for me, since I was born. Never left my side, even when my father decided to. And at times I will admit that I took advantage of this. I never really appreciated my mother like I should have. I always acknowledged that she did everything for me, but it never really sunk into my head that she was all I really had. The only person I could count on for absolutely anything. She will not let me fail, and has always helped me succeed at anything and everything I wanted to do.
And now my mother is sick. She has a number of lumps on her thyroids that could very well be cancerous. So, August 11, 2008, she will have to undergo surgery to have them removed to see if they are indeed cancerous, and if so, they will have to determine if it has spread at all. I'm really scared. I'm trying my best to be strong and help my mom in all ways possible, but in the back of my mind I can't help but think that she may have cancer and may die soon. I don't like thinking about this but I just can't help it. I'm always in prayer, however. Because I know that God does not want me to worry about my moms health because he is going to take care of it.

So I'm stayng positive.

David David David Banner Banner

Me and my one of my bestfriends Arielle were def. present and front row at the David Banner concert last Wed. Lets just say, he wrecked the House of Blues. The concert was bomb, he was all in the crowd, maybe even more than he was on stage! Interacting with the crowd the whole time and not just performing songs but answering questions and talking to us like we were just his regular friends. He kept the crowd extra hype though the whole time, and even picked up my friend and put her on his shoulders while performing "Get Like Me". Dannnggg I was jealous ha. Anyways, he lost some major weight, and shaved his facial hair.. so he's looking mighty good these days, he even kissed me on the cheek right before taking a picture with me.. made me cheese even harder. Ha.

CD is out TUES JULY 15th. COP THAT. Real talk. CD is raw, he performed almost the whole thing at his concert. Check out "Shawty Say" feat. Lil Wayne.









He did that.

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Designing Me

New album review up online nowwwwww.....
A Rowlett based band called Designing Me. Check it out and see for yourself if you loooovvee them like I do!


Click it.


peace out girl scout.
New blog later.. I need a little more inspiration!
Ideas on a topic anyone? Let me know!

It's time

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVi9n7NOIko


watch it. Please.
then PASS IS ON. IT'S WORTH IT.



thanks.

Gimme somethin REAL.

I'm listening to a bunch of music today, trying to find a new artist that I would like to review for my next assignment... Every song I come to it seems like the same stuff I've been hearing for forever know, then once in a while I willcome across something that seems a little different, different beat or look, but then as I listen closer, wack lyrics. I'm looking for more than just a beat. More than just a certain look. Anyone can go out and buy the clothes to play the part. But I need someone to have the look the sound and the words to back it up! I want to review someone with some real hip-hop talent. I want to hear some old school beats with some words that make me feel like I'm relating to something other than money and clothes. Give me something new. Something that everyone can say sets you apart from everyone else. I wanna hear some crazy cool beats that put you at the top of the charts without being questioned.

If someone finds an artist like this, hit me up asap. Until then, I will continue my search. I know there is someone out there with the talent to be an all around group with the style skill and confidence to show what they got. I want to hear something that just makes my face change in a second and immediately start bobbin my head to the beat. To where I'm like, "aye, this is it, they got it". I'll give you the best album review ever in life. Trust. lol.

Yay for Holidays

    A Successful Fourth of July. Family fun and fireworks, what more can I ask for? It was such a beautiful day outside and me and my ma didn't even argue once ha! Well we looked cute, not to mention the gorgeous view at the Harbor. It was like a SOCal view. Amazing. but totally Rockwall, TX baby. My homeeeee. And we got to watch the fireworks from on top of a loft, sipping champagne and eating cheese crackers. The good life. Okay, I'm lying ha. No champagne and cheese crackers, but it was still nice! Anyways, lots of pictures with my ma and my bestie aka my LOVE Arielle. Even though me and Rel spent the day being stalked by annoying 15 year old boys, it was still great ha.












    To add to good events, My church, St. Luke "Community" United Methodist Church in Dallas, TX had their annual " College Day" last Sunday. Everyone wore their college Alum tees and/or Greek shirts as part of dress down Sunday. All the current college students also went up in front of the church and announced their year, school, and major, then received a bible and got prayer for the upcoming school year. As I mentioned a few blogs earlier, a fellow church member Eric Birdsong passed away this year. He would have been a Sophomore in college this coming fall, but unfortunately was taken from this earth before his time. In memory of him was a new scholarship foundation in his name in the amount of $2,000 to a well deserved church member. The award winner this year was a fresh High School Graduate Jennifer. It was so great to see that he will never go unmentioned or forgotten. RIP Eric. We love and miss you, but know you are in a better place now. Please continue to pray for his family as well.

    All in all, it has been a good week. annnd I'm still in love with my keyboard. ahhh eternal bliss :]

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I am such a blogger.

I absolutely love writing. About anything and everything. I do not know a day that I just want to sit in front of my computer and unleash all different feelings about life and love and everything that matters and doesn't matter right now. I cannot see myself not wanting to write in my blog, or in my journal, ever. I cannot see myself not jotting down random thoughts in my phone to remember or write down later. I simply love the idea that people are reading what I have to say and whether they are agreeing with it or not, they still have read my words. My words have entered through their ears and soaked into their brain to marinate. I did that. I gave many people, or maybe just one person, another look on my life. How I act, what kind of person I am, my personality and pet peeves. I love the fact that I can freely express my ideas and not have anyone tell me no. This is what I want to do. This is going to be my career. I have spoke it with my words and told God that this is what I want to accomplish in life: To Write. I want to be the best writer I can be and make as much of an impact on as many people as I can. I believe that this is my calling. It is written in the Book of Life, and I will embrace it until I can no longer. I have no other dream job in life than to be a writer. I want to write things that people want to read over and over again, because each time it makes them smile even bigger. I want to write things that people will be quoting forever, like the words of Mark Twain and Langston Hughes. Writing is my passion. Something that I am driven to do, for my lifetime and on.

Here is me.

Im thinking...

This is an old post from my myspace I published over christmas break. I was reading a lot of my old blogs from my myspace and xanga, and kind of like some of the old things I wrote, even to this day. They all make sense and explain me perfectly at that particular point in my life, so I will share them with you willingly. Always another excuse to help others understand me better as a person, friend, girlfriend, child of God, etc. Hope you like.

Jan. 2008

As I am packing once again to leave for my second semester at Clark Atlanta University in Atlanta, Ga, I came across some very interesting notes from highschool. These weren't just any ordinary notes to me, these were notes from what I like to call "my biggest highschool crush" ::sigh:: His name, I will not reveal. He only went to my school for a year, but he was the cutest boy I have ever seen. He kept me interested, but also got me in ALOT of trouble with a couple people in that one short year. We didn't start talking until the end of that year, and he started writing me notes. yessir, LOVE notes. As I read them, they were so cute. Even though there were quite a few not so "holy" words, they were still the nicest and more sweetest notes I've ever read. Considering, they might be the only "love" notes I have ever recieved from a boy, ever. lol

Okay, now with background information complete, onto my initial reason for writing this blog. As I am reading these notes, I ask myself, "what if this would've gone further", "what if he was my boyfriend, instead of whoever was in my life at the moment", "what if he would'nt have moved away across the country, for my never to see again". "what if". I'm asking myself this questions a lot lately. It seems in the past 24 hours I have lost a bestfriend, and a former boyfriend. As a significant person who matters in my life right now, they are NOT.

Bestfriend: known since the 5th grade. What if i would've neer met her in the 5th grade? I probably would'nt have got into half the trouble i did in highschool, but as much as it was her idea, it was mine. So of course, no regrets. I just wonder, what if i would've met some other girl that day at school? Someone completely different from her? How would my life be the same? I wonder.

Boyfriend: Together for a whopping 2 1/2 years of my life. Sophomore year to Freshman year in college. Crazy, eh? What if I had made that boy who was writing me notes my boyfriend, instead of this other fellow? How would this other boy have influenced me or supported me or cared for me or loved me differently than the other? Would our relationship have been any better? Would it have lasted as long, or not exceeded the summer break? I wonder.

With all these "what if's" going through my mind, I realize that without these people in my life, the former two most important people who were by my side for so long, I would'nt be who I am right now. Because of them and their influences and such, I wouldn't have made the same decisions (good and bad) without them right there making them with me.

So I'm done thinking, "what if" in the past. I'm ready to think a "what if" for the future! "what if i do this?" Will it help me in the long run? Will I truely prospure? Or will I regret it later?
* Trick question : ) I regret NOTHING remember?*

All I have to say it that...
I'm ready! (i think.) lol

yay!

Amazing.

   

    I have had the best few days of my life. Things have just been going so right and I definitely do not want that to change. I have had some amazing opportunities come my way and have taken hold of them like no other. I am excited to say that I am officially a music review journalist for an online music review website. I have completed my first two pieces, an album review on Young Lyxx and a piece on Diana Ross involved on a charity event. I am thanking all of my friends and family and all my readers in general for the support and feedback on my blog, and I would like the comments and criticism to continue as I will continue this blog as well as the music review website.
    Most of all I need to thank God for bringing me to this point and opening this door to potentially start my dream career of writing. As we all know, without him, we are nothing. Ha, I sound like I'm giving a thank you speech on the BET awards (which I am actually watching right now), maybe it was just inspiration lol.
    Anyways, to check out my articles, go to Http://www.mspotonline.com . And keep checking back at my blog and the website for new stuff!
    Also, MSpotonline.com is looking for a new name to call ourselves. Any ideas on what our new name should be? Contact me with your ideas and the person with the perfect name for us will receive a prize!

jlbuckk@gmail.com

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success!

I am happy to say that I have successfully submitted my first album review to be posted online at www.mspotonline.com, a music review website designed to showcase new unsigned artists. My first album review was over Lennix Rogers aka Young Lyxx, a rapper out of San Diego. The review should be posted within the next few days soooo go check it out asap and of course let me know what you think! Also, still looking for new artists who want the chance to be on this website. send me you info on where i can hear your music and I'll decide if your worthy to be discussed or DISMISSED!! lmao


Thanks to everyone that continues to read my blog. I love getting feedback so keep them coming! I'm doing big things this summer it seems like and trying to get my name out there as a journalist, so let me help you help me. ha

-JBuck

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MSpotonline.com

I have recently been approached with the opportunity to write for a professional music review website. I suppose all of my blogging has paid off and someone has liked what I have written so far. I am truly honored to have this opportunity and will do my best to succeed with what I am brought with. This website is designed to find up and coming artists who want to be heard by more than just their friends. This website is to show everyone surfing the web what they are missing as the listen to the radio. Underground music is always the best music. Unsigned artists are the most interesting to listen to and everyone deserves a chance to take their potential career to the next level.
So, to give back to my people who have supported me throughout my blogging months, I would like to invite any unsigned new artists to contact me. Send me your myspace URL and/or email me with your information. I am happy to listen to you music and if I believe you are worthy enough to be written about, I will let you know. However, as I am looking for worthy artists to be discussed, I also have the opportunity to write about those artists who need t be dissed and dismissed. This music review is for me to be the ears of many. I will give my opinion on the music, but do not be discouraged if all that I write is not to your liking.
Once again, contact me with your info and link so I can help you out just as you are helping me!

[Note: Please be serious about this and have more than 2 songs for my to listen to, this is an ALBUM review, if you are a serious artist you should have many songs and/or a mixtape for me to listen to]

I don't understand.

i don't understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night.


how pictures never change, but the people in them do.


how your best friend can become your worst enemy or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend.


how forever turns into a few short months that you'd do almost anything to get back.


how you can let go of something you once said you couldn't live without.


how even though you know something is best for you, it hurts just the same.


how the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much time to spare.


how people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken.


how people can erase you from their lives because it's just easier than working things out.

[i didn't write this, but i had to post it. makes so much sense and is completely true]

Perfection.

Sex and the City.

This movie only makes me ponder even more when I will meet the man of my dreams. The person I am meant to spend the rest of my life with. The perfect person for me that will understand me in every way possible and take me for what I am, all flaws included. Personally, I am quite an impatient person, so I am so anxious to finally meet this person, maybe a little too anxious. I just want to know who my perfect man is! I am very aware that I am only 19 years old, but I am not sure that I can handle dating guy after guy, and continually being let down, rejected, or overall unimpressed altogether. I see it as a waste of time. I would rather meet the man of my dreams now, and be with him without having to meet numerous different guys, when they are clearly not the one for me. But it seems that I am the kind of girl that is attracted to the wrong guys. Guys that are just so smooth and think they are too cute for just one girl. Guys that do not want a girlfriend, but want all the "lovin" that comes with it. Guys that go through girls like underwear and cannot tell the complete truth if it saved their lives. I ask myself all the time how and why am I attracted to these type of men? Well, they are just too cute for words. And looks are always a plus and they def. get you in the door, before I realize that they are lameee and totally not the kind of guy I need in my life.
I just want a man! A funny, smart, SINCERE guy who is not trying to get to know me just long enough to invite me back to his room to "chill". And I am sure any guy reading this is screaming that this is them right? WRONG. I will not believe you for one second that this is you, because I am almost positive that every guy in this world has been like the guy I mentioned in my first paragraph. You have all at least once played a girl, used a girl, or hurt a girl. Do not claim to be this perfect guy for me if I would just give you a chance. I have heard this too many times and no longer take words as anything to put trust in. I believe what I see, and I aint seen nothing yet!