Too Much

I am a very goal-oriented individual, and very stubborn at the same time. Being in my second year at CAU, I have completely taken advantage of all the possibilities and opportunities that have been given to me at any given time, ever. I seem to be having a little trouble with deciding whether I have crossed the line from being a busy, hardworking student, to being a student overwhelming herself with too much. Anyone that has heard all of the things I am currently doing will most likely say that I have too much on my plate, but I beg to differ. I have serious goals in mind, and I want to get to them as quick as possible. Therefore, I am willing to do whatever it takes to get myself in the position I need and want to be in so bad, in order to get my spot as a writer for a well known entertainment magazine.

I will admit that I am having a hard time keeping all the puzzle pieces together with all the work I have to have finished by certain deadlines, but I have the mindset that if I just continue to focus, and stay positive, everything will go smoothly.

I am currently enduring 18 credit hours at Clark, attending class everyday until about 3pm. While this is going on, I am writing for the Panther Newspaper, I report the news for the WSTU radio station at Clark, and have just recently been offered at job in Atlanta Station. Along with this, I am attempting to get a second job, while patiently waiting to get my car over thanksgiving break, which I hope will make things go a little smoother, and am on my grind applying for these internships. I am trying to continue to be an active member of the AUC Texas club, and at the same time, seek out possible boyfriend potential candidates. [lol] And on top of all of this, I still love to party my booty off, so I try to make time for a little bit here and there. :]

It may seem like I have a lot going on, and I suppose that is true. I think I have adjusted to having 8754875984 thoughts running through my mind at all times with different things that I need to have completed, or which meeting I have today, when the deadline for this article is, and so forth. I have developed such a fast paced lifestyle, but am not quite certain that this is the way that I need to go about it all. I have so many ideas and goals in mind that I am just not patient enough to wait on them, so I chase them at full speed. Sometimes that is a good thing, but other times, I might need to just take a breather and back up a little bit.

To add more fuel to the fire, I am striving to graduate with the class of 2010. Yes, this would be a year earlier than I should graduate, but i figure if I take classes in the winter, spring, and summer, I will ultimately save my mother around $25,000 for Clark tuition. I can get all the rest of my basic courses out of the way at community college either here in Atlanta, or back at home in Texas. This is the part that freightens me the most, because I look into the future at my xmas break and summer break, and just picture me in school. In the end I know all this will pay off, but I can't help but wonder if after all of this I will even be able to think straight. My mother says I will be burnt out, but I suppose we will see! I plan to take 2 courses during my xmas break [winter-mester], then possible 2 more courses in May right after I get out of school [May-mester], and following that, hopefully 3 courses a session during summer school.

This all may change if I get my desired internship with either Teen Vogue or Vibe. If this happends, then I just won't take summer school! ha Anyways, if my posts come less frequently each week, its probably because I'm swamped with homework, or Mid-terms or something. But don't fret, I will always be back!

Peace our girlscout.