Bout Ms. Buck

Who is Jessica Buck?
If you have never even heard this name before, let alone know me as a person, what is is about me that keeps you coming back to read my blog?
I've decided to give everyone a little insight on who I am and what I am about.
Since I was very little, I believe that I have been a very dedicated young lady that always strives for the best and has always attempted to bring my "A" game in everything that I do. I have an older brother that I have always competed with in every aspect of our lives. I've always wanted to out-do my brother in sports, academics, as well as in the social scene. While I am a year younger than him, when he was learning to read at age five, I was right behind him at age four trying to read just as well. I was always trying to out run him in track, and be the annoying little sister trying to hang out with his friends. This was just the type of person I was. I wanted to be older when I was not, because I wanted to do things that older people did. I was always too eager to wait to grow up, and my mother still tells me to this day that I am trying to grow up faster than I should. I want to achieve so much in life, and I really do not think that there is anytime for me to lounge around and wait to be older to make this happen. I want success now, not five years from now. I want to be making the big bucks at age 19, not 25. I suppose many may underestimate my ability to handle my own and make things happen for myself, but once I start something, I always finish it with a bang. However, with so many ambitions and dreams I have in my life, I cannot reach my highest potential with out God in my life. Everything that I do, I always try to pray before hand to make sure that this is what God is calling me to do, and with God backing me in all this, I know I cannot fail.
Now, I must admit, that I am quite the stubborn child. I know that I have put my mother through hell during my 19 years living on this earth, and everyday I talk to her I know I stress her out and leave her thinking that I am nothing but a drama queen who will throw a fit if I do not get my way. I will say that my mother must know what is best for me, but at first sight I do not always see this. I have a completely different mentality than my mother so I am always thinking that she does not understand me at all, and times are different and things that were once so crucial when she was younger, are not at all something to stress now. But my mother is such a virtuous woman and prays daily for her children and their safety, and ultimately what God says goes, no ifs, ands, or buts about it! I love her to death even if I do not always show it. With out her, I do not know how I would survive!
On the other hand, there are many things that I do that my mother is not always around to see. I am a crazy girl who loves to have fun and be hyper and crazy with my girls. I believe that being young and free means that I am able to make my own choices and then live with them the next morning. In no way do I think I have portrayed myself in a negative way in my eyes. I simply see myself as a 19 year old girl, going for her goals, and in between all this work, I play just a little bit! I love to party, go to clubs, dance,etc. Basically I hate being bored.
Ultimately, I love myself and I think that I am a great person to be around. Whether you think the same or not, that is not going to keep me from being myself and doing what I want. I urge you all to get to know me before you put any judgments on my character, and never judge a book by its cover. I might surprise you and be the coolest person you have ever met!! I hope that anyone reading this has somewhat of a better understanding of me and what I am about, and I would also like to thank anyone and everyone that reads my blogs and gives me feedback to potentially help me get to the level I need to be at in order to succeed and achieve all that I am capable of!