I think it's time.

That I gave up on the past, old relationships, people in general.

The same people I thought I could count on before, I don't think I can anymore. I don't know if I need all these people in my life right now just complicating things. I may need to drop a few, and drop a few more.

I don't even feel the need to go into detail of each situation, but simply, I have had enough. I can't take being hurt all the time, and pretending like it doesn't bother me, and smile, when we both know I just want to knock the SHIT out of you for what you did, are doing, and will do to me in the future.

I'm angry, I will admit that, but I have all reason to be. And you CAN'T be mad, because you did tell me that you didn't know if even in the future you could give me what I wanted, which has always been... You.

That's cool, I mean I can't do anything to change it, and apparently haven't been able to do anything about it for YEARS. yes, YEARS. So I think this is the end of the end.

THE END.

It's a new year, with new pretty things to play with :)

This year is going to be epic.

I think I have a lot going on this year that will ultimately work in my favor. I have a lot of determination to grow as a person and a writer. I don't want to be at the same level that I was at in 2009, I am trying to go above and beyond where I was, and make a new level for myself that I didn't even know existed, really.

I'm not worried about what is going to happen with me and my family in 2010, I just know that we are all blessed to be here in the first place, and there are great things that come out of the Buck family, so no need to stress on things that I know will occur and end greatly.

Career wise, I plan to enter onto a new internship, I am currently applying to various magazines, Atlanta-based as well as nationally known magazines. I'm super eager to get into something new, yea, I'm all ancy and stuff ha

Relationship wise, I am still being as patient as possible and trying not to rush things with any relationship opportunity that is thrown my way. I'm doing really well thee days with

truly caring about how another person feels and being there for them, as well as getting to know a person very well before ever considering whether they would be a good match for me or not. And I have successfully discovered that the majority of the guys I know, or are very close to, are amazing friends, and friends only. No need to complicate things, right? I have plenty of guy friends, and I have plenty of guy friends who care about me in a way that has nothing to do with them wanting to get in my pants. I can't say that for ALL of my guy friends, but for the ones that matter most, the ones that I need in my life and do not want out of my life, aint no "friends with benefits" going on over here, I can tell you THAT much. Ha

Overall, 2010 is going to be some kind of year. I'm lowkey and HIGHKEY madd amp'd about it, and there is NO denying of hiding that.

Bring it on bebe, Jbuck is all the way ready to RUN ATL! lmaooo

too much.

I can hardly believe what happened tonight.

Too crazy, a lot to take in, but i handled it the best way i could.

I truly love him like no one else, and i don't know if anyone else will even come close to the way I feel about him. He is what completes me, and the one that makes me the happiest. I can't let him out of my life, and I'm glad that we agreed on that.

Even if we are not together, I don't know how to let him go, not completely. He's going to be in my life no matter what, and I have so much relief about that.

I love you.

summatimeeeee

is lookin up... wayyyy up!

my job lowkey sucks, but im making the money i need....

im partyin a lot more than i thought i would... thanks to my friends who show me a hella good time :)

i finally got to see my fam! its been so long.. anddd

looks like i found me a boo. hmm...

thank you summer 2009

Love.

-B

:]

I found me a boy.


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enough said.
now im happy.
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